Too Hot or might i say Hawt!!!

Adai......punya panas ni sini Shah alam. (thinking of being naked right now but of course i can't! duh!!) I know all people in malaysia feeling the same way too doesn't matter where they are. Huhuhu....be patient peeps..let's pray that sooner the weather will be okay! ^^ hmm, today as usual my life quite boring here. Being so far away from my family, still the hardest thing for me. But what can i do then? hopefully this year will finish as soon as possible. :D I have Uitm's modul today and yesterday. It was so boring.. I almost die. Hahaha. But it was better then last modul that i'd attend. Actually we have two sessions today, but after the tea break, me and my two friends went back home..escape the session..which is cool! Haha:D I had almost three hours nap and I'm having a bad dream before i was awake. Damn the devil spirit! how dare u do that to me! Lukily my boyfriend(Yes, we're back again.I'm too kind i think.huhu!) called me then i was able to get rid of it. I woke up and went to the kitchen and do the 'masak-memasak' and having lunch alone. Then, i was taking a short nap again,haha.....then wanna do excersice but i was annoyed by the sun.too hot..uncomfortable lah! so, i just do the sit-up..no jogging today.huhu :( I have a lot of assignments to do but too lazy for it. I need rest. So i watch Detective Conan at youtube. Nice one! Love the story, and I'm glad i can watch it at youtube. I only read the comic until chapter 50. ^^~

Detective Shinichi kudo aka Edogawa conan.
Detective Conan inspired by Sherlock Holmes

Then, I'm facebooking again. It's a routine anyway...So, I open my boyfriend's profile and saw 'this' girl commenting on his status. Duhh!!! so I did commenting his status but actually i was replying the girl's comments. i said..'Ceh.' Haha....i don't know, but I am still uncomfortable and a little bit hating the girl. I'm Sorry. I know it wasn't really her fault, but somehow she also had contributed the unnecessary 'flirt' with the person that i am with now. Now, she had a boyfriend, but still loving the attention from any guys (myb she thinks that she's to hawt!!!!) especially with her ex's including the guy that i am with now. I cannot accept that. I remove her in my friend list, both Fb's and F's..and she was really stalking on me because she added me once again. I am sorry, I am not being arrogant but I just think that u are not important to be in my friend list as for the things that u did to my feelings. Then once again, I ignored her request. I don't wanna be your enemy or whatever it is, so don't bother me and the man that i-have-been-given-so-many-chances again!!! just live a life with ur boyfriend and take care of ur boyfriend. Pity her boyfriend because she's loving the attention from other guys rather than him. It can be prove by just looking at her relationship status. Scared of losing fan or might i say Guys attention! Ohhh...am I bad to the girl? as long as i didn't kill her in many ways. Cheer up Jovenea!~ ^.^v

I was 19, still young and have Shin Chan pillow.


Now. 22 years old. Haha! =D

Feeling ABC Campur

Erm..ABC campur mmg sedap tapi kalau tu feeling mcm ABC punya ingredient...how??? Risaunya saya untuk hari esok..MIDTERM EXAM VOCAL d(T.T)b rasa sangat malas ni...lagu pun tunggang langgang..melodi ke laut...lirik pun hancur! huh!!! arghhhh!!! biarlah..mls sa tulis dlm b.i.....campur2 ni perasaan sa..mcm nasi campur....sayur campur...abc campur...semualah yg campur...tapi sedap pula kalau makanan yg bercampur2 ni...huhuhu...... Hopefully i can do better tomorrow! sudahlah kelas ganti 1 jam tidak pegi..gigi geraham bongsu lagi mau tumbuh.Haih!!! seksanya hidupku.... ='( Apa2 pun serah saja sama DIA lah...saya tau mesti DIA tidak akan meninggalkan saya...dan semua orang yang memerlukan..^.^~

Final exam last semester with vocal lecturer and friends.
(wish i could sing well like Ms. Syafinaz)


With my two besties--> Dayang(above) & Amalina(below) ^.^

Blurry..so blurry...

I've done everything.
Enough of everything.
I feel nothing,but everything
I bet no one knows,
But mama do.
and GOD knows better!
I am blurry..so blurry.
My feelings, my dreams so blur
I miss odd times but it was too much
I miss the old me, with cheerful heart
I've changed. My strawberry heart remains.
I'm getting old and sick. My strawberry heart remains.
I wish I was dead.
And so do the person.
I miss the old time together.
so blur

2010

I made a resolutions for this year, but seems to have a changes here and there. I started the new year hmm so-so. On the 3rd of Jan was terrible day. ='( I hope I can still cheer up and life goes on. I hope I manage to do well in my studies and my family will have a good year. I wanted to get back my heart. I am so tired of my almost 3 years relationship. I pray so that everything will be okay. Doesn't matter if we can't be together but I hope this time he will appreciate me and what I have done to save our relationship.

Godfrey Dearie

I respect you as a human being and because of you are not perfect like me too. I respect you of the responsibility that you're dare to take and for the brave heart you have. But, this is what they called life. You don't take things seriously as you needed too. And sometime you just realize that you've been missing the opportunity even though you have a lots of chance before. I thought you can make it for me for the chance that I'd gave to you to save our relationship, but sadly you didn't manage to do that. So pathetic. I feel very sad and hopeless. I don't know what to do anymore and what scares me is that I don't know how to trust you anymore. ='( I know i am not as beautiful as you want. Why? I keep searching for the answer but useless. Why don't you appreciate the time before? Why must you keep begging me now? Why Godfrey? for what reason that you have, I just wanted to say It's getting too late. I love you and always will love you but now I'm not scared to lose you. I need to get my heart back. My prayer will always be with you and your family. If this is GOD's will, let's just face it. If HE want us to be together again, then let's face it too.

SAKIT HATI!!

Memang sakit betul hati saya sekarang ni.saya bosan suda ni sakit hati dan disakiti...habis semua tangan2 saya ni lebam2 suda..siok pula tumbuk tu dinding tu...hahaha...masib bukan incredible hulk oh kekuatan saya..wakakakak....kalo nda, habis la bangunan ni..hahaha...Apa boleh buat...macam ni la kehidupan saya...relationship pun sangat susah ni saya rasa..TUHAN ja la yg tolong saya..

I'm in LABUAN mari....

I'm in labuan now. Today's Thursday 12th of November. Just now me and my boyfriend went to the cinema planning to watch some movie, but unfortunately the ticket are sold out.I'm not surprised because they have only 50 seats available. I think they should add more seat. It's 100% not enough..kecian ni urang mau mau p tgk wyg...buang tenaga ja dtg skali full..adihh!!! Whatever it is, what am i doing here in labuan?? nothing really..just want to release some tension that i kept for almost 5 months and meet my darling. I'm so lucky to have an understanding family especially my mom. she's the BEST ever!! I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful mother. =)) Even so, i'm already 22 years but of course I need a permission first. I'm run of battery. will be back soon...happy days! =))