I am so sad (Sono cosi triste)

I received bad news today. I am so sad to heard that. I was hoping that I have the chance but no, i don't have one. I am so mad. I am so pissed off! I hate when it comes to the bad side of me. I thought everything would be okay, but no! I cried. A lot. I'm so sad. Literally, what can I show again? I am so not in a mood. I don't feel happy. I feel sick. I don't know what to say. I am so frustrated. This is not as I wanted to hear. I really want so bad that time. I guess it's not for me. I'm sad. (T.T)